Why I am the way I am

My pet peeve?
Kids who try to assault me as much as possible, and cry to their mother when they get hurt.
Suck it up, you faggots.
Some people just want to piss people off, well here's something for those people.
You can annoy me all you want, just remember that karma's going to get you.
And it will hurt.
Why don't I like emotional pain?
Because it hurts so much more than it should.
So i take it out physically.
That's just the way I am.
So don't go complaining about how I hurt you.
You started it, so karma just got you back.
People don't even know my limits.
I have a very short temper. Why?
My parents have a very short temper. I got it from them.
So maybe next time if you want to pick a fight with somebody
Don't fight with me.
Because I will give back what you deserve.
I. Hate. Kids. With. No. Discipline.

.tamaki Kk whut.

Can I not deal with this? Thanks.

.tamaki aka [JacKaYu]

.tamaki Wow...

Haven't blogged for a long time o_o"
Seems like nothing's been bothering me up until now.

I'm glad I have my parents.
That way, I can get used to dealing with the most unreasonable, most disrespectful, and most discouraging people in the world. Thank you.

.tamaki aka [JacKaYu]

.tamaki History 5

Let's see how much I can bs this time. =D

.tamaki aka [JacKaYu]

.tamaki Volunteering

Wow, i'm tired of volunteering already.
=3=
Another 27 days to go.

.tamaki aka [JacKaYu]

.tamaki Screw You Guys.

Maybe I'm too serious.
Maybe I'm too responsible.
Maybe I want to plan things out before time and not wait last minute.
Maybe my internet really does cut at 11pm.
Maybe I really need to know information about the plan.
Maybe I really don't give a crap about any part of your freaking life.
Give me the freaking information.
And let me sleep.
Don't make me ask my dad for an internet extension.
Stupid faggots.

.tamaki aka [JacKaYu]

Maybe I shouldn't go. Stupid retards.
Group Convo sucks. Especially when faggot people change the topic every freaking second.

.tamaki End Of The Year

Yay.
-has nothing to blog-

.tamaki aka [JacKaYu]

.tamaki Can't wait to get out of here.

My gosh. I'm like an animal in a cage. Let me go, fag.

.tamaki aka [JacKaYu]

.tamaki Wtf...

First her, now you? You're leaving me?
Because of him?
You GOT to be kidding me...
I don't want my friends to leave me one by one.
Wtf is going on, wtf wtf wtf wtf wtf wtf wtf wtf wtf.

.tamaki aka [JacKaYu]

.tamaki ^^

I'll let everyone know right now that my dad is the biggest jerk alive.
That should be dead.

.tamaki aka [JacKaYu]

.tamaki Woww...

I have trouble sleeping >___<"
My throat seems to become worse and worse... FAIL.
My uvula is like, twice the normal size (stupid "fay zhee")
Anyone have any ideas how to soothe the pain? >_>"
And hopefully I'll be able to go to school soon. >.>"

.tamaki aka [JacKaYu]

P.S. Just noticed, I'm kind of screwed for my ISUs.

.tamaki -_-"

You just made my life so much worse than it already is.

.tamaki aka [JacKaYu]

P.S. Stupid throat/fever!

.tamaki >_______>"

Great.
Friends bring up Mr. Candy again.
Just remembered how much I freaking hate his guts.
I'm angry now. -_______-"

.tamaki aka [JacKaYu]

.tamaki -sigh-

-sigh-

That is all.

.tamaki aka [JacKaYu]

.tamaki Stupid.

You have issues.
Teach you freaking loser.
Or I'll call my asian family to whip you with a stick.
I'll freaking tear your face apart if you don't do anything about this.

.tamaki aka [JacKaYu]

.tamaki Rant

Ok, time to rant.

1.
Holy crap. Shut up.
I don't even believe you want my help. With that attitude? Screw off.
This is why people I hang around with don't like you.
I was also super angry at you last year, because you were a total jerk.
You don't seem to get it, do you? Stupid.

2.
Same as you.
Like crap. Your attitude is absolutely disgusting.
You wanted me to tutor you? By giving you ALL my answers?
Sorry, I don't give my answers like that.
You should at least work in school instead of asking for all the answers. Try to learn by yourself. Maybe you would be successful at one thing in your life. Maybe.

3.
You are so freaking immature.
Like seriously. I can't believe you even act this way.
You're either thick in the head or just stupid. Either way, they mean the same thing.
You try to be my friend. I do too. It's not working. Especially what happened in the past week.

4.
Maybe I'm just super annoyed at you, or you are freaking annoying.
How come I don't get angry at anyone else in the class when they ask me questions?
Because they can actually explain what they don't get, and not distract me in class.
This is why I hate helping you. People like you need to ask someone who's a little bit more patient than me, because next time you ask me a question, I'm not going to answer you.

5.
I'm trying to help you, stupid jerk.
I hate your attitude. You're not all that you claim to be.
Your decisions that you make are completely stupid, and you know it yourself.
But you still do it. Can't believe you can be so darn thick-headed.
And to just cut me off, when I'm trying to help you.
What a friend.

6.
I'm going to kill you and dig a grave for you in your backyard.

Hate handling with these people. No sense of who they're even talking to. We're human, not freaking books where you can just leech information whenever you want. Don't you guys even dare ask me for help. This is why my school sucks; they're full of disrespectful people who only care about themselves and for them to succeed in life. Turns out, they're failures.

Like, freaking losers.

.tamaki aka [JacKaYu]

.tamaki =D

Really, I don't know how to describe life at the moment.
Going through lots of emotional moments, like relationships, physical health, financial issues...
Sometimes it just hits me. I can't do it anymore. And I burst.
It has its ups and downs, but you know what, life is a gift from God.
Therefore, live life to the fullest.
I really really really love my friends, even though sometimes it does not look like it.
I take my friends way too much for granted. I wish I hadn't. I'll be trying to change that.
I'm so glad my friends are here to support me. I don't know what to do without them.
<33 love you all.

.tamaki aka JacKaYu

.tamaki Mah Jong

-Sigh-
Sometimes I just want to forget about everything and relax. =.="
Drama is never good, especially when you're in the middle of all of it.
Can't ask my parents, it'll get too complicated =/
-Sigh- D:

Mah Jong :D
Anyone as excited as me? XD

.tamaki aka [JacKaYu]

.tamaki ><

I don't even know what to do now. >_>"
Should I leave it as it is or just step in?
Ahhh God I don't know ><" Help me.

.tamaki aka [JacKaYu]

.tamaki DONE

NO MORE TWO VARIABLE STATISTICS.
ARGGGGHHHHHHHHH.

.tamaki aka [JacKaYu]

.tamaki STUPID

So I was on the bus back home.

I fell asleep.






...OH CRAP I MISSED MY STOP.

.tamaki aka [JacKaYu]

.tamaki Ew.

So I noticed I haven't blogged since forever. :O
Not good. D=

Anyway...
I've noticed
Mornings suck.
Reason is, there's like... 3 people I don't want to see in the morning. But they're there.
Erm... Ew. No.
Not like I'm not your friend,
but... go away.
After all the 'stuff', I seem to judge people.
A lot.
Argh, sometimes I just don't want to be friends with you -points-.
Maybe it's just me, or are you purposely making yourself annoying so that you can piss me off?
So stupid. Stop pretending.
I can't believe I'm actually talking about you like this.
But you know what, that's how I feel.
I'm lucky I don't see you that often any more.
...You annoy me a lot. Although I don't show it.
Don't want to see you in the morning. Don't want to see you... in school. Goodbye -_-".

.tamaki aka [JacKaYu]
P.S. I am talking about 1 guy and 1 girl. Argh. Go away.

.tamaki Wth D:

Wth.

.tamaki aka [JacKaYu]

.tamaki March Break O_o"

Well... March Break's over already O_o"
Seemed like only 2 days or so.
I don't even remember what I did on Monday and Tuesday.
I think my parents dragged me along somewhere D: Not very fun. D:<
Wednesday and Thursday was Teens Conference.
I have to admit.
I should have talked a lot more.
Like a lot.
I got to see people I wanted to see again like Suzanne, Jonathan, Gilead, Bezalel... etc. =)
But my team.. O_o" I couldn't click with them I guess.
It sucks D=
Overall, it was awesome. The pastor (PASTOR TIM =O) was awesome, games were fun, the messages were inspiring. Hopefully I can reflect it during my school and family life.

Hmmm what else.

Oh S4. xD
How could I forget. xD
I played too much.
I'm pretty close to getting Revolver.
And I need a life.
Like seriously. xD

Oh right, Physics Lab due tomorrow. Hopefully I remember. Dx -writes down-
Data Dx ew.
School's back so soon. So not cool D:

.tamaki aka [JacKaYu]

.tamaki March Break =O

Yay it's finally March Break!
Time to do my Physics Lab and Data Presentation and study for all those tests coming up after the break -_-"

TC 2009 <3

.tamaki aka [JacKaYu]

.tamaki >_>"

Screw you.

:)

.tamaki aka [JacKaYu]

.tamaki Rosetta Stone

Good news. =D
I'm actually so excited :O
My friend's getting me the Rosetta Stone program <3
I want to learn so many languages :3
Hmmm... let's see which ones :O
1) Korean
2) Hebrew
3) Tagalog
4) German
:O fun.

Bad news. D=
School is actually so boring. Besides lunch and Physics, there's nothing good to do. I don't find myself hanging around specific people for most of the time... it's just here and there. Dx It sucks having different classes than everyone else >.>
And then you have "friends" who you never talk to and thought you were close with them. -sigh- gee thanks. You like ignore me or something. It's actually so pathetic how you act around me. I dunno what's going through your head, but it's worrying me O_o"
And I always end up with people I don't want to hang around with. Like, during lunch, argh, go away D=. Not that you're not my friend or anything, but it's not the same if you're not here. In a good way. Good way for me, bad way for you. Ha.

Neutral news =|
Badminton tomorrow =O. Hopefully me and Ellery will own. =D
Interims are coming up (wow, already). My English will bring my mark down so much. xD
Chem is interesting. :O
English is OK. Starting to read Macbeth. :O
Lunch. Best time ever <3 MY V-JAY-JAY IS ITCHY ALEXA D: MY V-JAY-JAY.
Physics is actually so great. Alexa + Ben, we own <3
Data. Ew. Why did I take this course. Dx
Family problems are slowing being solved. At least they aren't too apparent.

Epic news =OOO
S4 <3. 9 weapons/4 skills. -points to self- No lifer? ~('o'~)
Other than that, nothing. Because life is unepic like that. D=

Stuff to look forward to o-o
Teens Conference coming up. Very excited. I hope it'll be better than last year. =D
F.A.S.T. is awesome. Ima try to keep it up.
Rosetta Stone <3
Getting membership at Lee's. So I can play with Ellery and Nathan =D
No snow soon :O
That's pretty much it.

.tamaki aka [JacKaYu]

.tamaki New Template ~('o'~)

My blog is so smexi now. =D

~('o'~) I actually love this emoticon <3

.tamaki aka [JacKaYu]

P.S. Quite random, I know.

.tamaki Aie yah~

Ermmm... I don't like this D:
I try to do the right thing, and it just seems like everyone is condemning me for doing it.
Sheesh, I do that because I care.
Not because I'm mean.

Ohhh school.
My courses are interesting in a way, but ew, ew, ew. D: Disgusting courses with stupid topics. xD

School subjects from easiest to hardest! :D

English (Ok I know this is my worst subject, I'll do really bad in this course soon)
Chemistry
Data Management
Physics

School subjects from most fun to most boring! :D

Physics
Chemistry
English
Data Management (-_-")

...
Look! I'm doing the wave! ~('o'~)





...









(~'o')~ teehee~

.tamaki aka [JacKaYu]

.tamaki Betrayed.

Argh, enough is enough.
I feel like I'm in some kind of drama, and I'm the victim who gets betrayed.
Seriously, I don't know what to do.
Karen, I know it's a hard choice.
But is it really worth it?
I can't make the decision for you.
Whatever you do, just know I'm still your friend.

Just maybe not my best friend.

You know, it sucks having to see others hanging around people with such bad influence.
It sucks having to see my best friend like that, drifting away.
It sucks how I can't help.
It sucks, because I've always treated you like a sister.
Now to me...
I don't know who you are to me.
It sucks having to think about this every day, every minute, every second of my freaking damn life.
I hate it.
I hate it. I hate it. I hate it. I hate it.
Yeah, I know it's your life. Guess who created it?
You know where you're going if you're going to continue this.
It's not worth it.

.tamaki aka [JacKaYu]

Your 'sorry' last week, it was fake. I don't believe you mean it. If it was, this wouldn't be posted here anyway. Say it to my face when you do mean it. But if you don't, don't pretend you're friends with me. Believe me, you continue this, the worse of a life you'll ever get.

.tamaki

I feel crap.
All this drama I'm going through.
It's so stupid.
I can't waste my time losing my friends.
I treasure my friends. I can't live without them.
And even if they hate my back, I don't care.
As long as God is with me, he'll hide me under his wings.
Because when the oceans rise and thunders roar
I can soar with you above the storm
Father you are King over the flood.
I will be still, and know you are God.

.tamaki aka [JacKaYu]

.tamaki Courses...

Chemistry (Sharp) - Ok so far... she gives things too last minute.
English (Candy) - Funny teacher, just the subject :\
Physics (Smith) - Funny guy, he's awesome :O
Data Management (Glickman) - Like the teacher, like the course, hate the gr. 12s. xD

.tamaki aka [JacKaYu]

.tamaki Happy Chinese New Year =O

Yum, Year of the Ox.
*eats*

.tamaki aka [JacKaYu]

.tamaki Paranoia

Ok I know it's been like 3 days already, but I'm still very paranoid about my piano mark ><
Argh... If I pass, then good. But if I don't (which I think I didn't) then I'll have to go back to piano classes, and do the exam AGAIN in the summer aka more $$$ + time wasted.
Argh, I feel so bad.

So my grandma arrived at HK several hours ago, dunno whether to be happy or sad to see her, considering how annoying/nice she was. Meh, it'll be soon that I'll miss her.

Hooray, I'm done 3 exams. Now I have the one that actually matters on Tuesday -_-" I really don't want to study, but meh. I want that 90 average.

French I'm POSITIVE I got at least a 95%.
CompEng, hopefully 85%+. (HAHA, thanks Amit ^^)
Math, hopefully perfect. (I want that darn 99%!!! GIMME NAO)
Bio, preparing to bomb it ><" There's too much to study (since I'm lazy anyway, too busy playing S4 :3)

Hmm, my dad got his gallbladder removed 2 days ago. He's feeling all right, just a little bit out of it sometimes. xD Still the annoying dad I know.

I'm looking forward to next Friday, haven't hanged out in quite a while.
Also looking forward to next semester, where I go kill myself with the workload =D

.tamaki aka [JacKaYu] <3 Clannad After Story. Amazing.

.tamaki Nothing's going right.

1) Computer SUPER SLOW.
2) After piano exam, I tell my parents it didn't go so well. Then my dad tells me how I should've listened to him and maybe I would've passed. Thanks, you piece of crap.
3) Friends are there when you feel down, but they're also there to make your life miserable when you feel good.
4) My grandma can't stop talking. How many times did I have to tell you to stop repeating the same damn sentences over and over until everyone's ears explode?

.tamaki aka [JacKaYu]

P.S. Wesley, just SHUT UP.

.tamaki Getting Ready

Getting ready to fail some exams :D

.tamaki aka [JacKaYu]

.tamaki Pissed

Stupid biology.
1) You said the assignment was due the WEEK AFTER THE BREAK, not THE DAY AFTER THE BREAK. You piece of crap, thanks for letting all of us know today that the assignment is due TODAY.
2) Next time in life how about you give the assignments BEFORE the break so that I don't have to stress over this freaking subject (look at post below).
3) You freaking waste time in that class. What the heck are you teaching? How to read? I can read notes without your stupid help. It's about time you teach us something.
4) I can't wait to get out of your class. You freaking suck.

Stupid computer engineering.
1) Oh, we have an independent assignment? THANKS FOR TELLING ME AFTER THE BREAK IS OVER. OH I HAVE SO MUCH TIME TO DO IT.
2) I want to throw a computer at your face.

Stupid piano.
1) Not ready. Going to fail. Pissed at myself.

.tamaki aka [JacKaYu]

.tamaki Stressed

January 8: Functions Quiz (DONE)
January 9: Biology Plant Assignment due (DONE)
January 12: Biology 15 Plant Sketches due (DONE)
January 14: Functions Unit Test (DONE)
January 15: Biology Practical exam (DONE)
January 16: Computer Engineering Independent Assignment due (DONE)
January 16: Biology "A Happy Meal" Assignment due (Didn't do)
January 16: Biology Portfolio #1 due (DONE)
January 16: Biology Seminar Notes due (DONE)
January 17: Japanese Reading Test
January 17: Japanese Listening Test
January 17: Japanese Speaking Test
January 19: Biology Portfolio #2 due
January 20: Piano ARCT Performer's Practical Exam
January 21: French Exam
January 22: Computer Engineering Exam
January 23: Functions Exam
January 24: Japanese Midterm Test
January 27: Biology Exam

.tamaki aka [JacKaYu]

P.S. I hate life.

.tamaki WR

Blackout much? :3

.tamaki aka [JacKaYu]

P.S. Happy New Year =O